“God, God, save me! I’m in over my head, quicksand under me, and swamp water over me; I’m going down for the third time.” Psalm 69:1-2
In Psalm 69 David was having a giant-size pity party, “Everybody hates me, nobody loves me, guess I’ll go eat worms,” like my mother used to sing to me when I began to feel sorry for myselv. In verse 4, David concluded, “ I’ve got more enemies than hairs on my head; sneaks and liars are out to knife me in the back.”
Sometimes people pick up on something I’ve said or didn’t say, did or didn’t do, and I’ve disappointed them. Or, I don’t fit into their expectations of how I should live my life and am blackballed. David’s complaint sums it up: “What I never stole must I now give back?”
Years ago, I may have felt as if I were entering into quicksand whenever someone became angry or disillusioned with me. I’ve learned that everyone has their own set of values, expectations, sensitivity level, and in some cases, narrow mindedness. Like David, I feel “condemned if I do; condemned if I don’t,” and it’s difficult to apologize when you feel you have done nothing wrong.
I’m not implying one should never throw a pity party, but how long can such a party with complaints and “woe’s me” continue without it becoming a drag on one’s emotional and physical health? That’s when it’s time to take the complaints to God.
Lord, nudge us into reality when we are the sole attendees of a pity party. Amen.