“He crowns you with love and mercy–a paradise crown.” Psalm 103:11
Those who know me as an adult couldn’t imagine me as an over-sensitive, insecure mommy’s little girl. Today, psychologists may say I displayed symptoms of separation anxiety disorder.
I vividly remember the day I started kindergarten. I’d missed the first two weeks of school, due to a skin condition, was in no hurry to leave my mother’s side. Then, there I was–the new kid–frightened and wishing I could turn around and go home. While sitting in a circle on the floor and listening to Mrs. Nelson read a story, my mother slipped out of the room. No assuring hug or goodbye kiss. The moment I realized she had abandoned me to this new world called school, I cried.
Throughout my life, I’ve used the baby-step approach to build confidence in my abilities and in my faith journey. I’ve become a stronger woman–one who can stand on her own big feet. Now and then my sensitive side stops by for a brief visit, or insecurity tries to trump the card I’m playing. But when I stumble, I have God’s assurance that the crown of jewels prepared for me will keep on shining.
Dear Lord, thank you for helping me grow in confidence in my ministry as a writer and speaker. Amen.