“Investigate my life, O God,
find out everything about me;
Cross-examine and test me,
get a clear picture of what I’m about;
See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—
then guide me on the road to eternal life.” Psalm 139:23,24
Today I got the dreaded notice: Your checking account has been overdrawn. I can’t believe I let that happen–the first time since I can remember, perhaps a hundred years since this last happened. I used to depend on Glen to do the bookkeeping. I am well trained and smart enough to do it myself, but it is always on the back burner. Right now, preparing my house for the renters and getting my book ready to publish is on my mind.
These days I find myself distracted more easily with “widow brain” syndrome. I just wonder how much longer I get to claim this “disability.” For nearly seven months I was occupied with visiting people, traveling, caring for grandchildren, and then hosting a friend in my home. Now, I’m getting used to living alone. Sometimes I wish I had not rented out my home for the winter, but then I would not have had the funds to remodel two bathrooms and tile the floors in three bedrooms.
I will bite the bullet, pack warm clothing into my suitcase, and go to New Jersey for Christmas and the month of January. And, I will keep better track of my checkbook!
Lord, help me focus on my business and projects. Amen.