[Paul said] “That’s why I don’t think there’s any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. … Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens.” Romans 8:19,21
“Life is too unpredictable for rigid expectations” is a quote from a blog site, Marc and Angel Hack Life Marc writes, “When you stop predicting and expecting things to be a certain way, you can appreciate them for what they are.” I’d add, “especially during a time of loss.”
When married, I was aware that my actions affected my husband. I felt guilty if I said I’d be home in an hour and showed up two hours later. I second guessed decisions I made with Glen because I wanted to make sure his needs were met first. My identify became “we” instead of “me.”
For the first time in over fifty years, I have no choice but to make my own decisions. Yet, I find myself wanting someone to say, “Go for it.” My choices—good or bad—are mine to own, and because I am of sound mind (most of the time), I don’t need to constantly second guess my decisions.
I didn’t ask to be single again, but my wedding did say, “Till death do us part.” It is now my opportunity to not be too rigid about expectations for the future. I will trust God to reveal plans for the future one day at a time.
Lord, give me wisdom in my new role as a single woman. Amen.