“Be very sure now, you who have been trained to a self-sufficient maturity, that you enter into a generous common life with those who have trained you, sharing all the good things that you have and experience.” Galatians 6:6
I have frequently heard people say, “You always seem to be in control–strong and sure of yourself.” They don’t see the mushy mess of insecurity I can cook up in less than a minute, especially when I have disappointed someone. One would think as a writer, I would have grown thick skin by now, but when I’m overly tired or under stress, I slip back into my old habit of self doubt.
I have always considered myself to be a good communicator, but I never took “Mind Reading 101,” and some things go over my head. I hate to disappoint people and see it as personal failure. When this happens, no one needs to reprimand me, as I spend hours mentally kicking myself around.
On the other hand, if someone doesn’t meet my expectations, I easily forgive and forget. After all, they are human and make mistakes. So why do I find it difficult to forgive and forget my own misdeeds?
All my life I’ve been a pleaser. Perhaps that comes from trying to put the needs of others before my own which may be considered a bit self-serving. When the course “Developing Thick Skin 101,” becomes available, I will sign up.
Lord, help me please you with my words and actions. Amen.